Chel

Travel and tell no one, live a true love story and tell no one, live happily and tell no one, people ruin beautiful things.

Sometimes we get sad about things and we don’t like to tell other people that we are sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. Or sometimes, we are sad but we really don’t know why we are sad, so we say we aren’t sad but we really are.

Let someone love you just the way you are – as flawed as you might be, as unattractive as you sometimes feel, and as unaccomplished as you think you are. To believe that you must hide all the parts of you that are broken, out of fear that someone else is incapable of loving what is less than perfect, is to believe that sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dark room.

You’re my breath of fresh air when I’m drowning. You’re what holds me up when I’m falling down, you don’t care that I’m broken on the inside, you don’t care that I’m a loaded gun that could go off at any moment, that emotionally I could destroy you.

You know my head is filled with demons and my heart can be ice cold, you fight them with me and light my heart on fire. You love me despite the fact that I’m still learning how to love myself. You love me even tho sometimes I’m cold to the touch. You have enough love for me to last a lifetime for the both of us.

You understand that I’m a roller coaster but you’re first in line to get on it. You remind me that we’re in this together and that you’ll always protect me, that you are stronger than the darkness that haunts me and that I will never push you away or exhaust you. You constantly remind me that flowers grow back after they’ve been stepped on. And I will too.

I have never seen someone so beautiful. And “normally” its weird to think of a guy as beautiful. But that is the only word I can think of to describe it. Another beautiful thing is the way I thought I could never have him, how he could never be mine, but maybe he is now. I’ve never gotten butterflies from simply seeing someone’s smile. My day has never been made so much better by simply being in someone’s presence. Simply looking at them, knowing they’re there, knowing that they might just be yours. Though it may be complicated, though you may have your differences, what goes on between the two of you is amazing. When, even in the short time you’ve known them, you so deeply understand that they are meant to be in your life in one way or another. When you never thought you would find the person you were looking for, the “one” like in the movies. When you find this person, you never let go. Through the fights, the hard times, the bullshit, you fight. You will know this person is the “one” when you make the greatest team like nothing can tear you down, nothing can break you apart, be it hell or high waters. This is YOUR person. Take them. Keep them. Love them and hold them so much closer than you’ve ever held anyone. You hold the key to happiness.

In a tiny box no bigger than a fist
At the bottom of a frozen river
In a canyon of ice and rock
On the furthest planet in our solar system
That is where I buried the ashes of our love
So that only the lonely emptiness of space
Can bear witness to the snuffed-out sun
Of light, of heat, of warmth, of joy
That once sustained us